Our Crazy Life!

The past few weeks have been quite crazy. We have a lot going on these days. I am currently trying to wrap-up the school year, dealing with some crazies, searching for a new job, battling weekly SVT episodes and extreme nausea...all while trying to cherish every moment and be the best mom I can to London. This has been a challenge. I feel like I am constantly too tired to play with him. We haven't been to the park (in our neighborhood) in a week. There are some days I am so out of breath due to asthma or I am just too tired and nauseated to get up. It sucks. I am hoping this second trimester calms down on the health drama. London is fantastic and is about to turn 19 months next week. He is learning new words daily and is saying over 50 words on a regular basis. He had his eyes checked and they are perfect so we really have no idea why our pediatrician felt he needed to see a specialist...maybe they have a quota of referrals...who knows...bullshit. Anyways, he is scheduled to have his third and hopefully FINAL hypospadias surgery on June 15th. I cannot wait until it is over with and he is all fixed up. I don't want to hear that "hypospadias" word ever again! London's pooping is back on track thanks to mirilax and the only thing we are still working on is getting a good night's sleep and staying in his crib. Over the past few weeks he's been waking up in the middle of the night sobbing and calling out, "my mama!"...I can't ignore it because he sounds so pitiful so I find myself putting him in bed with me and he snuggles and falls right asleep. I know it is a bad habit but I feel guilty for being away from him all the time and I can't just lie there while he needs me. Maybe I'm a sucker but for now, I'm giving in. I am hoping that this summer his sleeping will be more on track since I'll be home with him everyday. Two weeks ago my parents came to visit and London had so much fun bonding with them. They fit right in at our house and London refers to the guest room as "nana and papa." He still knocks on the door and yells to them. It's super cute and also a little sad. We had a great time and it reminded me of how awesome my parents are. They are so helpful, energetic, and happy! They make you feel good to be around them. Maybe it's because they are retired, but I have never seen them so happy and full of life. London just loves them.

Yesterday was my birthday and I ended up in the hospital. I had an svt attack for the 3rd time in about 2 weeks. When I was admitted to the hospital my heart rate was 230 beats a minute. I was freaked out as usual but thinking about the baby scared me the most. They hooked me up with 15 heart wires (I counted them as I had to rip all the stickers off me when I got home) and luckily as soon as I laid back in the hospital bed to get them attached my heart reset itself and went back to normal. Kary and London were with me but they had to wait in the front while they wheeled me away. Little London was yelling for me and that made me feel even worse. When they got in the room London jumped on me and just started wailing, "maaaaama!" and hugging me tight. I think he was really worried. I quickly distracted him with my cool red light finger cuff and showed him all the cool wires hanging off mama that made me look sort of robotic. He calmed down and we luckily were discharged in less than an hour. But....alas, we had a $233 copay and who knows what other bills will be sent my way for the 30 minute hospital encounter...Oh well, the coolest part was when the doc did a sonogram and showed us that the baby was fine and the heartbeat was strong. We even got to watch the baby jump up and down. It was Kary's first time seeing that baby so that was cool. It made me feel so much better that the little one is safe and sound. The doc reassured me that these episodes are not dangerous to me or the baby unless other symptoms are present or if they are really prolonged. That is a relief. But, it is still a terrifying experience that I'm sure I'll have to experience a bunch more in the next 28 weeks. My sweet husband got me a nice new camera for my birthday so my pictures will be much better in the future!